Gideon missionaries came to my treatment facility to save us sinners. My counselor told the group of witnesses I was struggling with the higher power aspect of the 12 step religion (and it is a religion even though their own literature denies it) so I met with their best, a prosperous attorney. He asked me why I couldn’t accept a higher power doctrine.
I told him I didn’t believe in God or any religion. He wanted to know what happened, why did I reject religion. Nothing happened I explained, except I decided to research religion. It seemed logical to investigate what my eternal soul depended upon. How is it that people follow the group they are born into blindly? The Lawyer began to make arguments.
“Listen,” he said, “AA is not a religion and you don’t have to believe in God, your group or a doorknob can be your higher power.”
I replied, “Isn’t AA a program that insists on honesty, honesty to others and yourself?”
“Yes.”
“Saying I believe a doorknob can cure me is dishonest.”
“It’s not the actual doorknob that will bring you peace it’s . . .”
“What,” I interjected, “what it represents, God?”
He tried a different tactic.
“The most popular book in the world is the Bible and you can find them everywhere. With all those people reading Bibles they can’t be wrong. Millions of passionate people have found solace through Christianity, they can’t all be wrong can they?” he asked.
“Using your logic I could say the following must be true too. Since Islam is the fastest growing religion and the Koran is catching up to the Bible, and talk about passion, Islam followers are blowing themselves up for their faith they must be correct.”
“That’s different,” He barked angrily.
If those were his best arguments I was in for a long boring day. I found it curious a man who used logic and argued for a living was so blind to the inconsistencies he was touting. As we went on I think he realized the logic of my points and it upset him. He was seriously pissed off. Of course, he would have only gotten angry if I was making good points.